- Me: I just... don't eat anymore.
- Friend: What do you mean? Of course you eat. Everyone has to eat.
- Me: ok.
Realizing that you just spent the last two years of your life living, breathing, and dying for someone who thinks that you’re chubby and annoying.
God, there’s nothing left.
Anonymous asked: What happened?
I started this blog, lost some weight, and somehow convinced myself that it was good enough. That I was good enough.
So I stopped going to the gym as much, stopped looking for Thinspiration, stopped logging in here. I maintained the weight I was at but stopped losing weight.
And I was wrong. I’m not good enough. I won’t ever be.
I can’t think like that. When I let myself fall into complacency it’s me telling the world that I’m ok with being disgusting.
I just wanted so badly to feel normal, to not have this control my life. But I’m not normal. I’m not pretty, I’m not thin.
The one person that I thought believed all of that ended up being full of shit. He sees me just like everyone else.
That’s probably more of an answer than you were looking for and I’m sorry of it made no sense.
Get up. Go get a glass of water.
Here we go again.
"He told me how you always complained about being fat but never did anything to change it. So you stayed that way."
I thought it was going to be ok.
5’9”. 130 lbs. It’s the very lowest end of average. That’s enough, isn’t it?
It will be alright if I just keep up this pace, I don’t need to lose any more, he thinks I’m beautiful, doesn’t he?
I was wrong.
I was fat.
I am fat.
www.spinesandwrists.tumblr.com
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www.spinesandwrists.tumblr.com
I haven’t been able to be on here very much, my life has been so hectic lately. But the girl who runs spinesandwrists is always available, and loves to help. I know her in real life and she’s a sweetheart.
She runs her blog in the exact same fashion as mine, if you’re a fan of mine you’ll adore hers.
So please, follow her and ask her questions. I feel terrible not being able to get to all of your questions, so the least I can do is refer you to someone who will.
Anonymous asked: So im going on a vacation on feb 18th. Its in a tropical plce so im gonna be wearing a bikini, is it possible in ANY way to lose 20 lbs by then??? Im gonna buy some diet pills on saturday, but other than that what should i do?? I weigh about 132 right now and i'm 5'6/7. HEELPP
Honey, I honestly think that this should have been started a lot sooner.
Diet pills are a supplement, not a substitute.
You can make a lot of progress, but 20 pounds in less than a month is QUITE a lot.
www.thindigo.tumblr.com/tagged/faq
There’s a lot of helpful advice in there. Do as much as you can, and please don’t be disheartened if you’re not losing as much as you want to.
Anonymous asked: A and Y
Reason why my last relationship ended:
My last relationship before my current one (that has lasted 2 years so far) lasted about 3 years. It ended about a year after it should have.
He was emotionally needy at first, which I liked because I like to fix things. It makes me feel useful, special. But that neediness quickly turned into obsession and abuse. I became so used to him in my life that it never even crossed my mind to end it. No matter how many times he cheated, hit me, degraded me. I finally ended it in the winter of my junior year of high school. Thank God. Best decision I ever made.
Do I want to go to college:
Well, I’m a college sophomore right now. Ahaha.
But I don’t know if I’m going next year because of how much it costs and the fact that I don’t know what I want to do with my life and I’d rather not end up $25,000 in debt with a degree that I don’t know what to do with. :)
Anonymous asked: can u please help me
Not very well when you’re anon.
Please come off anon and message me. I will never answer publicly if you ask me not to, it will all remain between the two of us. I can help you so much more if we do this on a personal level.
