bbbaaayyylllsss asked: I'm 5'5 and 190 pounds, my weight, has ruined relationships, friendships, and my own self confidence, it has stopped from being my old happy go lucky self ,I was once told I had a bubbly personality and I was vibrant, now I'm depressing,and quiet.I'm starting college next year,and I want to enjoy that time in my life, and love myself.but I'm so lost and I Do not have any support,don't know where to start.

I was in this exact emotional state at this time last year. I’m a freshman in college now, and I want you to know that it is possible to turn all of this around by the time you graduate.

Where to start? Get up and get a glass of cold water. Right now. I’m serious. You’re not starting tomorrow, that kind of thinking leads to an infinite amount of “I’ll start tomorrow”.
Go get a piece of paper and a pen. Write down everything you’ve eaten today. Everything. Now go to google and search for how many calories are in each of those foods. Add it all up. Scary, right?

This is going to be a long fucking road, and you need to acknowledge that. But you WILL put in the work because you DESERVE better than this.
You need to invest in a sports bra, a good pair of running shoes, and weekly trips to the grocery store to gather fruits and vegetables.
I recommend bananas, kiwis, pears, strawberries, celery, anything like that.
You will cut these into pieces and always have a Ziploc bag full of healthy goodies with you. When you get hungry, you can dig into this bag instead of stopping at the drive-thru.
Also, buy a few packs of sugarfree mint gum. I’m pretty much always chewing a piece of Orbit Sweet Mint sugar free because it’s fucking delicious and tricks my brain into thinking that I’m eating.

If you have a job or any means of income, it will make all the difference to invest in a gym membership.
Don’t worry about people seeing you work out, they’re all at the gym for the same reason that you are.
I highly recommend the elliptical because it burns almost as many calories per hour as running, but it won’t be nearly as hard on your body because it is one fluid movement that works out every muscle group.
Elliptical, stair climber, situps. The situps are going to be insanely hard at first, but it’s amazing how quickly they get easier. They melt away belly fat like nothing I’ve ever seen.

If, for whatever reason, you can’t make it to a gym there are literally thousands of workouts that you can do in the privacy of your own room.
Situps, jumping jacks, mountain climbers, yoga and pilates (look up routines online, there are oodles of free tutorial videos), pushups, ANYTHING that will make your heart race and your muscles burn.
There’s basically no excuse to not do this. 

If you can, find someone else who wants to commit to losing weight. This is infinitely easier and more enjoyable when you can share it with someone. Also remember that I will always be here to help you. If you want me to respond privately just ask.

I have no qualms with privately sharing my phone number with those who are dead serious about becoming thinner. I am so proud of you for choosing to start this. Just keep in mind that the first days are the hardest, and that it will only get easier as you get into shape. <3

I’m begging you to stay in touch, it would mean the world to me.

~Indigo

Anonymous asked: I'm 5'1 and 138 pounds. i eat around 1,100 calories a day and just recently have started waking up early and working out for 20 minutes and running on the elliptical for 30 minutes with resistance. my goal wait is 115 by March 14. help?

So, we’re basically looking at losing 25 lbs in 2 months. It is very possible, but it’s going to take a lot of hard work.

You have a fantastic foundation, because the hardest part is beginning your exercise routine. You just need to continue to cut back on calories and ramp up your exercise. I would recommend trying to do 50 situps a night (this will be extremely difficult at first, but it will quickly become easier), and then bring that up to 100 a night once the 50 becomes child’s play for you. Steadily increase all areas of your workout as it gets easier and easier for you. If it’s not a challenge you’re not doing it right.

As far as food choices go, I cannot stress fruit enough. It’s sweet, it’s filling, it’s low calorie. Kiwis, bananas, pears, grapefruit, and strawberries are my absolute favorite.

Count your calories, keep a food log.
Chew slowly, think about what you’re putting into your body.
If you’re hungry, chew a piece of gum until the flavor is long gone.
Still hungry? Get down on the floor and do 50 situps, regardless of whether you’ve already done it today.
Think about what March 14th means to you. Visualize what it would feel like to reach that day and have failed. If that isn’t motivation, I don’t know what is.

You have complete power over your body. Make the right choices, and you won’t ever regret it. Message me again off anon if you want more personal advice.

Good luck my love, it will all be worth it. <3

Anonymous asked: How do you reduce cravings and not eat? I crave sugar a lot and always end up eating something sweet by the time evening hits :(

Froooootttt. :) Fruit. It’s sweet and amazing and low calorie and natural.

Strawberries, kiwis, bananas.
Just try it.
Eat slowly, actually taste every bit of it. Way better than candy.

I also try to be chewing sugar free gum whenever possible, it tricks your brain into thinking that you’re eating when you’re actually not.

Or you can lace up your running shoes and head outside. That always seems to dissolve hunger. By the time I get back I can’t find the hunger when I look for it.

I hope this helped!

Anonymous asked: Hi, I need to lose a lot of weight by March 3rd. I'm 5'4" and 140 pounds... ): I have rolls. not tiny ones. big ones. PLEASE HELP ME. I really need to be skinny!

You have about 3 months. That’s more than enough time to make some serious fucking progress.

Here’s the one catch.
Don’t start tomorrow. Start NOW.
What are you doing right now? Drink a glass of water. I’m serious. And you need to be too.
I don’t know what your time zone is or your living situation so I can’t exactly tell you to get out outside to go for a run at this very moment if you’re 13 years old and it’s 1am. But you can write out a schedule for when you will work out and stick to it.

As far as food goes, count your calories. Look at food for several minutes before deciding to eat it, chew slowly.
Fruit is your new breakfast, hungry is your lunch, vegetables are your dinner.

Please message me again, off anon, and we can talk privately about your individual situation.

Anonymous asked: what are some safe foods to eat? i find myself disgusted with everything. no matter what i eat all i can picture is myself getting bigger and bigger..

There are plenty of “safe” foods, but it sounds like your problem isn’t with what you’re eating, but what your imagination thinks it will do to you.

Any fruits, vegetables, homemade whey protein shakes. I personally adore kiwis, celery, bananas, pears, shit like that.
Remember that unsweetened tea is 0 calories and fucking delicious, and certain foods take more calories to digest than they contain (like celery).
Anything that has been grown from the earth will ALWAYS be a better option than something packaged that had to be manufactured.

Your body absolutely NEEDS food in order to keep losing weight. Otherwise it doesn’t know when its next meal will be, so it starts storing fat for the long haul.

Hungry is good, starving is very, very bad. Message me again, off anon, if you want to talk privately about your individual situation. I’m always here to help.

put-me-in-the-puptent asked: Awesome! Thank you, Fern ;) for helping me! I took your advice and just had the protein shake with water and a banana 3 hours later. I'm still hungry but I'm fighting it! lol

Hot water, it makes you feel like you just had a warm meal. I know you wouldn’t have one right now, but kiwis always fill me up. You should try it when you can. :)

Also, if you muscle through this hunger for about a week your stomach literally shrinks. Then the hunger isn’t nearly so bad, and when you do eat you get full faster.

Just keep telling yourself, “I won’t eat until one o clock.” then “I won’t eat until two o clock.” and so on as long as you can. And when it comes time for you to eat again, make sure you put out a preset amount. That way you won’t get out of control so easily. 

Fight the good fight! :)

Anonymous asked: I'm trying to lose weight but im only 15 and my mom is making my eat foods that I don't want to. Any suggestions?

How you should approach this depends upon what your weight loss goals are.
If you are medically overweight, then you should be able to explain to your mom that you are trying to lose weight to be a healthier (emphasize the “to be healthy” aspect of it).
If she is reasonable and you make your point well it shouldn’t be a problem.

If your goal is to underweight you have quite the ordeal ahead of you.
You’ll either have to lie (which usually ends up biting you in the ass), or save up your daily calories for the time when you’ll be around your mom.
Plus you can make up for the calories she wants you to eat by exercising. Going for a run around your neighborhood, doing situps in your room, leg lifts, there are tons of things you can do without a gym membership or without your parents knowing.

I hope this helped! Feel free to message me again, off anon, if you need to know anything else. I’ll always keep these thing private if you ask. :)

Anonymous asked: I remember someone mentioning the 2, 4, 6, 8 rule with laxatives. I was just wondering what the side effects where once you stopped. I feel like I'm getting nowhere and would use them for a while and stop before it gets too bad.

I’m going to preface this by saying that “before it gets too bad” is a very subjective phrase and that, once you get started, that boundary can become very fuzzy.
Please be careful don’t lose sight of the bigger picture. :/

For those who don’t know, the 2-4-6-8 rule when referring to laxatives is a way to make sure that your body will not easily build up a resistance to them because then they would stop having the desired affect.
You would take 2 on the first day, 4 on the second day, and so on until you reach 8. Then you would cycle back around to 0 laxatives, then on to 2 again. So on and so forth.

Abusing laxatives, like any over using any other drug, can have some serious long term side effects.
You’re basically roughly scraping your bowels clean, which WILL hurt like hell (not a pretty image, but it’s the raw truth of the matter).
Also, prolonged over usage of laxatives has been linked to an increase in the likelihood of kidney stones (once again, these hurt like a bitch).

After you stop using them, you’ll probably be constipated for a little while because your body has become accustomed to them.
Personally, I believe that exercise and a clean diet is a faster, safer,.and MUCH less painful way to lose weight. While using laxatives in addition to those things can speed weight loss, please be careful not to lose yourself along the way.

fighting-till-the-end asked: Can you put a picture up of some of your tattoos, sorry if you already have, I'm new to your blog. I know you're "recovering" and I get how unbelievably difficult it must be for you to be happy with your body, but how happy do you honestly think you'll be at your goal, because I'm worried that when you get there, it just won't be enough. Do you know what I mean? Maybe I shouldn't ask, but I'm not one to sensor myself, so don't answer if you don't want to. Anyways, tattoos? Xx

I did quite a while ago, but I’ll go ahead and post them again for you.

And yes, I am concerned that I’ll get wrapped up in it again. But I’m trying my best to not let it overtake me. And I’ve said before that if I’m happy with how I look before I reach my goal, I’m going to try to maintain whatever makes me happy. Weight is a useful tool to measure progress, but it is still just a number. :]

But yes, tattoos. Sorry if these aren’t the greatest pictures. The ones on my thighs are hard to get pictures if by myself without making the women’s faces looked warped.

My first two.

My third and fourth.

And my fifth. Still in progress, but I hope to have it finished soon.

steal-my-soul asked: hey darling :) So im 5'3" and 145lbs. My UGW is 105lb as well. I have NO idea what to do or where to start. I do watch how many calories I eat, and I do like at least 50 jumping jacks, pushups, crunches a day. What are some exercises I can do to definitely drop some weight and what are some other things I could do?? Thank you so much dear.

My overall advice is to restrict your calories a bit further, and keep up on the exercise.

It sounds like you have a great foundation laid, now you just have to build on it. I loovveee the elliptical. It’s not as high impact as running (and therefore not as hard on your body) but it still burns a lot of calories per hour.
If you have access to a gym it’s my number one recommendation. Turn those crunches into full-on situps and you’re doing smashingly. :)

It will get easier and easier to complete 50 of them, so after the first week or so try ramping it up to 100. Good luck!